noc·tu·ary (n.) a record of what passes in the night; an account kept of the events or thoughts of night.
I've always had an affinity for the night, it's when I work best, I find comfort in the absence of light and its quiet stillness, my thoughts become clearer and more pronounced then, maybe that's partially to do with our three young children filling all other moments throughout the day.
In my new body of work, I am exploring the fleetingness of time through the absence of light, causing the viewer to look deeper into the illusion of void, which in reality has much less depth than they think.
it's shorter than you think,
therein lies the beauty.
After becoming a caretaker for my husband I realized just how fleeting time is, how the concept of tomorrow is a promise not easily kept. My garden became my refuge, a place to tend, a place to laugh, a place to cry, and a place to marvel. The more uncertainty that filled our lives, in regards to how much time my husband has left, forced me to evaluate every aspect of my life and confront why I routinely scheduled joy instead of seeking joy every day, even in the mundane.
My work in flower preservation is a lesson in growth, in learning to let go of what I should, and only holding on to what I can.
My work is a continual reminder that there is always beauty to behold and joy to be found simply because it bloomed, because it lived, no matter how fleeting a time, or harsh the weather, or rocky the soil, flowers, they bloom,
and so should we.
Yesterday is in the past,
let it go,
Tomorrow isn’t promised,
so let it go,
hold on to Today,
because Today is all you have.
That longing for moments to stay resulted in me clinging tightly to those precious moments I knew would eventually come to an end. It’s changed the way I look at life, now I go all in, whatever it is, I'm right there, present, deep in the experience. Carpe Diem, it's something that I work at every day without fail, I acknowledge those heavyhearted feelings and then pack them away so I can fully immerse myself in my life.